A lot of people have asked me today how I feel about turning 25 and truth is, I feel accomplished.
What have I done that is worth writing about?
Well, the fact that I found the courage to leave behind a job that provided security but not joy, a nice apartment but not a home, friends that were fun but also very toxic, in order to become the best version of myself I'd say is pretty remarkable.
I decided to get rid of the what if's in my life and fill it with even if's.
I made this decision after my grandma, the most important person in my life said to me one day "move to NYC and try Fashion for a year, even if you fail, you will still be ok". Right there and then it hit me. "Even if".
I decided to get rid of the what if's in my life and fill it with even if's. So instead of asking myself "what if I fall?", I opted to tell myself "even if I fall, I know I'll find a way to get back up".
I can honestly say I'm the happiest I've ever been. But it wasn't easy. In fact, it's still not easy. Happiness is a result of a series of conscious decisions that one makes every day. What decisions? The simple ones, which also happen to be the hardest.
From waking up as soon as the alarm goes off at 5:30 AM to exercise.
Being grateful for 10 different things every morning like the bed you slept in last night, and the warm water you showered with this morning. Even for the things you don't have yet.
Savoring the moment. Instead of eating while scrolling through Instagram, chewing slowly and truly enjoying the explosion of flavors happening in your mouth.
Saying yes, even if it's scary.
To the hardest one of all, loving and being your genuine self.
It took me 25 years, but I did it. I am finally in love with my soul and my body, in sync with my emotions, and aware of what consumes or gives me energy.
I now embrace myself and everything that comes with, flaws and mistakes included. I learned to look in the mirror and see the person behind the imperfections and say "Even if... I'm beautiful anyway!" with all the confidence in the world.
I learned that when you live unapologetically, you cause uncertainty in others. I learned that sometimes even "friends" will make fun of you behind your back, send screenshots of one typo you made and not tell you about it, and criticize your work. Yeah, it hurts, but even if it hurts you have to keep believing that you're giving your all and the only thing worth laughing at is the fact that you are following your passion and they are not.
I learned that it's not about right or wrong, it's about doing things correctly. Finally, I learned that in order to be happy, you have to do what you love and success, security and support will follow.
Now a new set of goals are in the horizon. Goals that don't stop at 25 or me as the protagonist. In fact, one of them is this platform. I strive to create a source of inspiration for other girls that will encourage them to embrace themselves, to practice authenticity, and lift themselves and other women.
Finally, I want to finish off with a thought...
"Maybe the journey isn't so much about becoming anything. Maybe it's about unbecoming everything that isn't really you, so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place."
- Summer Saldaña
1. Leopard Lady
2. Unexpected Paisley
Sock Boots in Nude
3. Novelty Whites
4. Sexy Red